i'm a runaway son of the nuclear a-bomb

[obeetaybee]

So, I wrote this little story the other day.

And while I wrote it, I listened to this fanmix I made a million and half years ago in livejournal time.

I dithered, as I am wont to do about posting shit or not, because you know...fanmixes and photoshop are not my forte.

But then I decided, fuck it. Which is so much more my forte.

So here you go.

title twisted and drowned
subject girl!Sam/Dean and the twisted little world they live in
notes listened to on repeat while writing lament for lazarus. girl!Sam is portrayed by Lyndsy Fonseca. Front and back cover under the cut, individual songs uploaded to box.net and the zip to mediafire.
warnings uh, maybe bad language and heterosexual incest





twisted and drowned - full zip

old haunts - gaslight anthem
Cherry bomb, your love is surgery
Removing what you don't regard
And every breath felt like a funeral, baby
While you were packing up your car
And with the window down
I hear your tired mouth
You borrowed everything
And wore all your old welcomes out


into my blood - carina round
I wait all my life
Just for the rush
The passing of fire
Into my blood

All the reasons that raced through my mind
Just to keep me twisted and drowned
I leave them behind

blinding - florence and the machine
Seems that I have been held, in some dreaming state
A tourist in the waking world, never quite awake
No kiss, no gentle word could wake me from this slumber
Until I realise that it was you who held me under

Felt it in my fist, in my feet, in the hollows of my eyelids
Shaking through my skull, through my spine and down through my ribs



you kill me - paper route
You pull me down underneath
And my air I can't breath
I can't sleep, I can't dream
And I can't stop loving you, kill me



bluebird - paper rival
you, caught in the middle
you, cut to the core
you're left in the dust of decisions
begging for more

now, you're high and alone
be careful, don't swallow your tongue
just put an ear to the ground
where you did it
wait for them to come


bloodstream - stateless
I think I might've inhaled you
I could feel you behind my eyes
You've gotten into my bloodstream
I could feel you floating in me

Words can relay nice
They can cut you open
And then the silence surrounds you and haunts you


s.h.e. - IAMX
And when your devil complains
And tears you up, to start again
And when you're lying on your stage
And nothing works, just living hurts

Forget, forget
With the secret harmonic emotion


a hundred kisses - she wants revenge
I'd steal a hundred kisses
Before you say goodbye
And make a hundred wishes
In the name of you and I
Cause what we have is secret
So don't let no one know
The past can't come between us
If we both just let it go
Today is the perfect day
Today is the day I tell you
If you ever walk away
Then I would die right there
For you


how much more - stars
In the wild, in the way you love me
with your smile, will you ever save
save me
because we can't freeze ourselves
in this hell
you came with me so hopeless I fell



brother - the organ
lie down in a field if you can
look at the night sky
oh, where does it end?
sometimes it hurts when you
care about me
but it's going to hurt more when
they take you away from me
we have go to take cover, brother
we have got to take cover, brother


what have i done - anna ternheim
i hope you feel the way I do
i hope you give yourself up too
i'm damned to feel the way I do
what have I done
to fall so hard
for you


weight of the world - black rebel motorcycle club
this is stranger than love or loss,
turning backwards you face the dawning,
no excuse for a wasted life,
lightly falling through a whisper of sky.


i will follow you into the dark - amanda palmer
no blinding light or tunnels to gates of white
just our hands clasped so tight
waiting for the hint of a spark
if heaven and hell decide
that they both are satisfied
illuminate the no's on their vacancy signs